Happy End… kind of. :)

I thought I can not end the blog with a sad post. ;)

The whole sad incident happened almost 3 months ago. Right now everything is way more positive!!

I began to ride Bella again. It was my big goal to start with her at a huge fun show about a month ago.  We had lots of fun there and I was even placed in the relaxation test AND in a Western class open for any riding discipline. Really cool! In the dressage lessons she is doing extremely great as well. She is now even better than before her pregnancy. (though she is a bit chunkier now *lol*)

Oh, and another good news: her broken tooth looks better and doesn’t need to be removed. The vet sad it was alright as long as I let him check her teeth regularly.

And another great update: I bought a colt last week!! :)

I did not plan to buy a foal at all. But I found him!! And I fell in love! :)

He is Zidanes half brother but that was not the reason I bought him. It was only the reason I found him as I googles other Zauberfürst foals. ^^

This little guy has got a fantastic personality, couraged and sensitive. He has got extraordinary good gaits and has god a very correct conformation. AND the cutest head ever. He is now 4 months old and I have so much fun teaching him everything lie picking up hoofes or just hugging him all the time! :D

Maybe I need to start 2 new blogs. One for my dear Bella and one for my new little guy. :)

Nobody can “replace” my Zidane and I will never forget him. Ever!

But right now it doesn’t hurt anymore and I feel really lucky because my mare is doing so so well!! It could have ended worse!! O.o

And because I have a wonderful little colt with the greatest personality now! :) Now I can live my dream to teach a horse everything from foal on and I am so much looking forward to our future together! :) I am sure he is going to be a fantastic riding horse and that we will have a very happy time together!

Maybe I will start 2 new blogs soon. One for Bella and one for my little cutey!!

Zinedine Zidane

Yesterday I made an allbreedpedigree entry for my heavily missed little colt:

Zinedine Zidane

He was just perfect: black-brown without any markings.

Yesterday I thought wether it would have been better not to follow my dream and not even try to let her cover. Or wether it would been better if she never took last year, or lost the foal in the first 100 days.

But then I thought: hey, if she did I would have never known what a great broodmare she truly is and how beautiful her colt would have looked like. Now I know for sure. And I truly feel like a breeder. A breeder who has lost the very first foal she bred. But a breeder who did tons of research, who tried to make everything perfect and who even cleaned toilets at Burger King after university to make this dream come true.

And in between all the sadnes and helplessnes this makes me feel proud too. It has just been unfair.

This is the end of my dream though. And the end of this blog.

My fairytale gone bad :(

I’ll just copy and paste this from equichat.com as I don’t find the strength to write all this again:

Dear equichatters,

this morning I got a call from my barn owners. Bella is fine, her foal is dead.

The vet was already there. She foaled without any signs before. Though we checked her from time to time during the night. at 6 am there was nothing. And at 7am the foal lay there, dead.
Everything must have gone so quickly. Bella is fine, said the vet. We should only check her temperature every day to make sure nothing's getting infected or so.

Her foal came on earth being very very small, like a twin, but looked "complete" and like it had been able to live, said the vet. He said there are no signs it had already been dead before birth and no signs for an infection. It must have died becaus it wasn't strong enough to get out of the placenta (right word??) and breath. And this is what makes me so sick. It could have been alive if somebody had helped.
My barn owners said though that no one knows wether it had been strong enough to survive the next days. Because it was really really small. :/ But who knows?

The whole family is very very sad. My barn owners are too.
And I know all of you had been looking forward to seeing her foal as well. So I'm sorry I have to tell these bad news.

The most important thing is that Bella is fine though. She seems to be not sad. She didn't really recognize what was going on. She didn't even sweat, it must have been a super quick birth.

The foal was black-brown and a colt without any markings. He looked like I had always seen him in my dreams.

No I’ll have to add that Bella is still fine. Her temperature isn’t rising or so. She isn’t sad as long as she’s in her box and seeing her friend’s colt. But when you take her outside her box she is screaming and prancing and so on. :( :( I feel so sorry for her!!!

I broke down at the barn yesterday. I felt so guilty… I dreamed last night that I was there to help my colt and that he survived… :(

My barn owners told me that nature can be cruel sometimes. If he didn’t make ist out on his own he might have been so weak that he died hours or days later… or would have become a horse who tends to become sick. Who knows. It’s not easy to understand for me that everything worked perfect in pregnancy for her, birth worked perfectly for her, the colt was just perfect looking and than he died. :(

I’ve been registering her in an orphan foal registry on tuesday. But there wasn’t an orphan foal for her.

I won’t let her cover again though my vet encouraged me to. But I think there was a reason why the foal was that small. Maybe she couldn’t give him all he needed in pregnancy, though she was in good shape, almost a bit too fat. And maybe this was because she was 16 already and still a maiden. Who knows? But if this was the fact it won’t get any better next year. And I won’t risk another hole in my or my mare’s hearts. And I won’t risk my mare’s health.

Not tomorrow yet ;)

There are no changes from yesterday to today. ^^ My barn owners believe she won’t foal until the end of the week.

There are great news in spite of that though!  Bella’s friend Lena foaled this morning! She gave birth to a bay colt who sleeps a lot still of course and is extremely handsome and cute! :)

:D Not monday

It was a misunderstanding. They thought Lena would foal on monday, not Bella. :D

So here’s the update for sunday: her udder has become a bit smaller but is extremely hard now. There is more wax hanging from it and I could even see that there had been some milk dripping on her leg. But there are only tiny little dried milk spots on her leg. There are no other signs.

I think I’ll have to wait a few more days. ^^ Maybe she waits until weekend… weekend would be a nice time to foal I think! :D

Monday???

Funny! My barn owners are both experienced breeders.

He predicted that the X day will be friday.

And I just heared from a friend over facebook that she predicted that monday would be the day!!! O.o

Let’s see…. :)

There is some wax

Weee… she has got a tiny little bit of wax on her udder since yesterday. There are no other signs yet so it will still take some days. It’s nice to see a development though! :)

Her four legged friend Lena has got way more wax on her udder yet and shows other signs as well. I guess she might foal the next 2 days or so! :) So exciting! :)